Monday, September 12, 2016

Deep from my heart

Very deep from my heart 😯😯😯

Empat tahun lepas. Dia datang bila aku baru saja putus kasih dengan orang lama. Aku bagai hilang arah hilang percaya hilang tumpu pada lelaki. Serious. Sebab lelaki very unpredictable.

But... He came into my life and cheer me up. He make me laugh. He calm me down. He do every single things that make me smile. Our relationship...i mean long distance relationship was going so well. He love me so much (i think so). We rarely fight. Kami jarang bergaduh. Kalau ada pun, boleh dihitung dengan jari. Sebab dia jenis yang tak suka marah dan tak suka serabutkan kepala dengan masalah. This is why i fall in love with him.

I love the way he is.

Sampai la satu hari. Selepas dua hari genap empat tahun perkenalan. Few days before my birthday. I found something.

August really suprised me! Damn!

He had someone else there. I was to far from him. It was his reason. Kepala otak dia @#$#%@ at first dia kata she just a bisness partner and of course i wont believe him (im sorry). But then i found out that they are both fall in love. They have been together for one year. Aku jumpa macam macam gambar they went out together. Kepala otak dia laa...

But i still want him for my love. Cause i love him so much. I forgive him. Yes i know love does'nt bring you anywhere. But i want my love. I wanna be the winner. Cause i am the one who are with him before. Not that b@#$%. I wont give up easily.

Aku dah penat asyik perlu mengalah dengan perempuan lain. Kau ingat aku ni apa? Kalau dulu boleh la aku mengalah dengan perempuan-perempuan tu. Tapi bukan kali ini. He's mine b@#%$. Aku dah penat dengan permainan dunia. Please give me a peace. I need him. Even semua orang asked me to leave him but im sorry. I wont to that. Im sorry. I need to fight with my heart fight with people surrounding that i will always waiting for him whatever it is. Unless one day he will truly kick me out from his life.

If one day he really going to left me...i promise i will do what i have already plan to do. But don't worry it wont hurt anyone. Just myself.

I just cannot think what should i do. Sighhhh....

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